Damaged By Speed.

Hampered by another police summon. Under APJ 1987 PANDU LAJU. They do really want to stress out I was committed to that offence with those bold letter words on the letter, don’t they?

Looks like I’m going to treat my blogosphere in a way of telling everyone how I really feel everyday (as most of you would always tweet, kan? I just have a feeling that I got to earn some money to buy a mobile phone that can assist me in posting my thoughts throughout the day via twitter or else. For now there’s no Blackberry, there’s no iPhone. Only a phone that once cynically called as iLampu (you know who you are) because that’s the only feature that makes the phone really useful. Don’t worry iLampu. You have served me well. I am still going to keep you after buying a new phone after holding my envy towards most of my friends’ phones. Haih..). Unfortunately, this time you have to read my dissatisfaction and unpleasant sentiment towards this misfortune.

With series of ill-fated events I strongly believe that I was the victim of the complaint been made against. It is stated that place of offence was at Jalan Mahameru, Kuala Lumpur. It happened on the morning of 21st of May 2010.

It is a routine for me to go to Shah Alam within this June as I have to attend my Microprocessor intersession class. At first I thought of staying in Shah Alam to make myself easier not to miss the 2 hours of lecture throughout the weekdays but apparently I just don’t want to waste any joy of going out with my friends in Gombak at night particularly when the world cup campaign has begun. Who can resist shouting out loud cheering all the goals none other than with your friends? However, it should not have been the priority since 60km drive Gombak-Shah Alam-Gombak everyday is certainly not an easy task. Only working people would make themselves ready for it, not to mention the stress of enduring the traffic jam along Federal Highway. In spite of the charge, yes, I do remember. I drove the car smooth and patiently till I reached Shah Alam and that was the case.

To pay the summons is equal to forget all of these dreams below, to erase this wish list.

1. To buy a new pair of shoes. The only pair of shoes that fits me now is my pink striped Puma shoes. Actually, I have two other pair of shoes but have you ever heard a story of a man who can’t buy shoes for himself? He doesn’t know what his shoe size is and as a result he has two pair of shoes that do not fit his legs. 1st pair, too small and the 2nd one, you guess. (OK, they are big and I purchased them from a bundle store. The shoes are rare and I could not stand to see others to wear those green striped Puma shoes. I would be jealous as I found it 1st! Greedy,heh? If it wasn’t because of the big size those shoes would be the biggest bargain of all.)

2. New jeans, perhaps? Some might notice I wear the same boot-cut jeans when going out with them. Every man has something in common. We can have a closet full of clothes but still can’t figure out what to wear. Put on our favourite worn-out jeans and pair it up with a plain coloured t-shirt and now we’re ready for the whole day activities! I have three pairs of jeans only in my closet (still they are less than my friends owned, I swear!) and I might just have to buy another one. (For the favourite jeans, basuh dua minggu sekali tu normal, kan? OK, am joking, but still..)

3. To travel at least to another country within 2 years from now. How I envy seeing others’ pictures travelling all around the world. , I think for now I’ll frequently visit the payment counter while keeping the officers’ wage every month fixed. At any point, I will try to fund my trip to other country as I can’t let my blank passport pages go to waste. Krabi Island perhaps, anyone?

4. A new pair of football boots. Puma V-konstruct (1st grade ) and Puma King (2nd grade) both torn and worn-out.

5. Above all, all I ever wanted was a brand new phone. OK, iLampu. I betrayed you. I am thinking of buying a new phone. However, with this kind of fate I’m just going to stick with you.

From the list none of them will be in grasp. There’s nothing for now I can do to have them in these pair of hands. Only having the victim’s frustration of the fine given as I thought it wasn’t my fault.

In spite of the charge, yes, I do remember. Initially I was late for the class that morning..and I drove the car smooth, not to mention the speed until I reached Shah Alam. Have I told you that in the beginning, haven't I?


--dalam beberapa hari lagi akan menghadapi peperiksaan intersesi. Kelas tamat seminggu awal sememangnya bukan idea terbaik yang lahir daripada seorang pensyarah kerana salah seorang daripada pelajarnya tidak begitu menumpukan perhatian sepanjang cuti tersebut. OK, focus.

Lullaby.

Klip ini adalah kesinambungan kepada teks yang ditulis sebelum ini. Sekiranya anda tidak mampu tidur jadi cubalah untuk melakukan sesuatu sehingga mengantuk.



Cubaan mencipta lagu tidur sendiri. It's the beginner's short lullaby.

Yang berakhir dengan diriku yang berjaga dari malam waktu tertidur pada pukul 8.00 pagi itu.

--ending yang kurang kemas akan diperbaiki kemudian.

Help Him To Sleep.

Either it’s a misconception or a rarity, you can still grab a soft pillow and lay your head onto it without thinking of the nuisance that normally keeps people awake throughout the night. It’s an inconvenient moment but the truth is your body can never easily rest without clearing your mind and turning off the internal dialogues. The routine doesn’t work that way.

Sometimes, there are no words to describe how severe can it be, having the state of mind with no peace. In making no claim to be a paragon, you have to endure the nightmare with great fortitude. Have you ever wondered how brains can contain all of the memories of our deeds and sins of our past? Notably the sins and mistakes that we’ve done, not even to our greatest strength to think of our personal lapse with equanimity.

Something that human really weak at is to let go of the past. Every so often, let bygones be bygones phrase is just getting hard to be implemented.

Even a feckless person has a dream.

To live normally, to rest and to remain calm despite the emotional distress. In reality it should be simple. Even an end has a start, and a dream has to begin with a ... sleep.

(A friend of mine has criticised the other friend’s blog writing for trying too much on the meaning of his text. I feel that I am trying too much too to make this happen but hey, we can never blame anyone for pushing too hard, can we? It’s the effort that counts).

--Peluk bantal peluk untuk keselesaan diri lalu tidur mengiring ke kiri.

Impromtu.

Sometimes it’s hard to realise, either you’ve just being carried away by compliments/flattering remark or simply overlooked the criticism. Conversely, it gets easier to drift away from the unconsciousness really when you feel that the world leaves you in a state of in dire needs of helping hands.

Dated back in 30th May 2009,

“You stare at things without having any input crossing your mind shows that you live in agony. Having life that is not according to the proper path may shatter the dreams that once you live your life with.

You might think that you are bigger than the world and the world smiles at you when you are on song but the truth is there are bigger shots you just have to look at. Effort is for us to exert and to make ourselves better than yesterday.

Reputation is temporary, determination is priority. For people like me who live in agony through the view of these eyes and from the body who feels, please wake up and place yourself to where your feet should be.”

Self-motivation, for people who stare their own eyes meaninglessly in front of the mirror.

Rambut Richard Ashcroft.

Oh God, I’m enduring the phase of listening to a single song over and over again. I know it’s a cliché to post something about love because day by day you can always find someone who can tell you a better definition of love. But hey, in a view that’s the beauty of it. Every single of them has their own interpretation of their affection for something whether they have the courage to convey their own version wholeheartedly or just keep it to self. Unfortunately, in my case here is particularly not for something but someone.

In the name of having trouble in expressing the tenderness towards Love.




Richard Ashcroft – A Song For The Lovers. As the frontman of The Verve, most people regard his voice sounds better live than recorded. I first listened to this song 10 years ago and on global charts it was on no. 32 at that time. It’s a sheer pleasure to resurface this song back.

One of the comments from a viewer on Youtube :

“I love this video because it presents a typical situation in which you are home alone or somewhere alone and you feel like someone is there too. You feel as if you were not completely alone, but you are indeed and you check every room, turn off the music or the TV, turn on the lights.I mean maybe it's a common situation or maybe I'm just crazy.”

I could not agree more.

Certainly, the presence. Love, wherever you are, I’ll always feel you.

(Oh well, you could say something about the epic ending of the video, still this video will always be one of my favourite videos ever.)





Loving the live version better.


--Usaha untuk menyimpan rambut panjang seperti Richard Ashcroft selalunya berakhir dengan kegagalan tahap miserable.

Chance.

Dated back in 29th May 2009,

“Sometimes you feel good. Sometimes you feel bad. It’s just simple as that to describe the norm of this life.

I feel that I'm rich because there's no use to spend more than I should. I feel that I'm poor because I think I'm lack of advice.

I'm such a talisman for my team because there's no one-man glory. Yet, a talisman needs all the teammate's courage to be in a match-winning side.

I'm an educated man because I read book just enough. Somehow I feel I'm dumb as a man can be knowing myself lack of actions compared to the knowledge gathered within.

I made right decisions to set the path but I have myself to blame not to look in front while walking straight to the path I chose.

I have enough faces to look at as they are such important persons to me, but I haven’t got enough love for them as I let love fade away for the wrong sides.

I always aim for the sky because it makes me feel high in spirit. I always seek for the stars but never get myself shine as a gem of a man I should be.

Somehow I tell myself there's nothing wrong being imperfect. There's way above right being ordinary.

But I always tell myself you are not that perfect. There's nothing wrong being ordinary unless you do hard-fought battle to keep yourself survive. I've kept myself awake with these words and I will end up contented closing these eyes telling myself "you are everything you are. You are someone to the world regardless the flaw you have. Just put some more effort to where you've left yourself behind."

Now it’s good to have a good rest. It’s good to give myself a chance for tomorrow."

(Teks diambil daripada ruangan nota Facebook. Pada waktu tersebut penulisan pada Facebook adalah nukilan secara spontan, cubaan menghunus kata pada medium berbeza).

Guidance.

The Negligent always told a tale of how he survived the catastrophe of downward spiral that had happened to him. Unfortunately, he told it to himself. It was the kind of whisper that lingered in his head over and over again. He did not know how to handle it but without whichever sincerity to himself he behaved well in front of his acquaintances. However, he did not know how to express and lately he misbehaved. He kept thinking the consequences but he could not find the solution amid the loud noise within. The laxity has caused concern to himself. Yet he still could not fix them.

The Negligent knew himself too well. He recognized the potential that he possessed but deep inside his fragile heart he was just vulnerable as anyone could be. He was far from a finished article. He was completely aware that he has been given the responsibility to lead the line, at least himself, for every burden that he held.

The Negligent could never blame anyone for his quest to gain supreme failure.

For whatever method he used he seemed to forget that he was just an imperfect human being, in learning the triviality of being rebellious has cost himself a fortune.

Yes, being rebellious and egoistic had cost The Negligent a fortune and he forgot about that really, and the word guidance.


--Sedang mencari kerja sambilan pada waktu cuti.