Legacy.

There’s a time when the world is too heavy for us to carry on our own it’s worth then to write something relieving for ourselves. It’s not a matter of solving the labyrinth of our life's journey to achieve perfection but how you really need to release all of the loads, temporarily.

I have realized this is a kind of world that people are trying hard to leave their own legacy but hey, for only once, close your lovely eyes and leave all of the anxieties and distressful days behind.

As you know, journey to the perfection is not really for human to achieve for. It should be a continuous journey of finding the bliss rather than the perfection itself, regardless the length of the run.


“Jikalau lelah rehatkanlah seketika ikhtiar mu,
Jikalau hampa tuturkanlah bicara liku mu,
Jikalau hingar mengganggu tidur bangunlah sejenak hilangkan sayu,
Jikalau gusar menyelubungi serta menyelimuti diri,
apa yang kau perlu lakukan..
hanyalah hamparkan seluasnya segala beban,
biarkan saja masa sukar itu berlalu.”

Goodnight people! Semoga hari esok lebih baik!

Sunday Morning.

I didn't sleep for the whole night. There's a lot of things lingering in this head that I'd need a little help in digging a nice deep grave to bury half of them. I haven't posted a new entry for quite sometime. It shows how much I'm running out of ideas to write but hey, there's a fact that caught me a little while to give a thought to and it goes like this ;

"Don't tell your problems to people, 20% might concern but 80% are glad you have them".

What are the odds of helping yourself out?We can't give counts on it, can we?

You need real people to assist. Emotional turbulence may occur in every way, in many aspects, caused by the world that you're sucked into, your own world but forever since only human can give concern and be confessed to is the reality. Everybody is someone and as for me now this is the one of the genuine facts that I may well hold on to. I'm totally against the percentage given because there's the word trust, not always to be shown but more on been given gradually for the benefit of avoiding the internal sufferings. Don't be afraid to tell because life changes, real friends don't.

p.s : --Flashing lights to bring you back from who you’re running with, but I know you know now.



p.s.s : Life changes, real friends don't - quoted by Izham Ismail.


The Other Guy.

It’s just another episode of him whereby he’s just one of the other guys who stands and observes most of the time. Who speaks loud by facts but only in his mind, juggling wise and shrewd thoughts by no approval. Who speaks the truth but only for himself to defy. In the real world when he doesn’t talk much but he does want to genuinely force some steps to revolutionize what is around for the better, in his own standpoint. Revolution sounds immense but for a little place in mind of his own definitely there seems nothing to border the generation of the ideas to do roughly some. If it’s worth for himself then it would instead be called a salvation. To speak the truth out loud by not holding it back inside for the better of himself and certainly being one of these “other guys” this is the most prevalent obstacle that he has to surpass and to get through.

Perception is the only personal insight he has. He doesn’t want to stay in the rat race forever. Even if he came out eventually as a winner it will not guarantee him a comfortable place but that’s the least he could do to save himself from the silence that will ceaselessly keep him away from any lift.

Opt for no failure he has to decide. It’s like the gravity. It needs only a little sensible push and that’s all it takes for him to justify the significance of his act, to speak and to ask, unleashing the thoughts without holding them back at a stance. Failure to do so will raise the question of what he’d be missing in a long term and without having the courage to voice out any of his beliefs he’ll just have to stay in the mould being the other guy and subsequently pay the price of being one - orthodoxically rotten and drowned in his own egos.


p.s : About the gravity thing actually the phrase came from a big hit movie and truly it's the push for this whole text. Haa, cuba teka ayat tu datang daripada script movie apa?

p.s.s : Selamat berpuasa kepada semua!

Eric Forman

Which that 70's Show Character are You? -- Eric

My Result: Eric

"You are Eric! So ok you are kinda nerdy with how you love Star Wars so much. But you can also be a major smart ass, and for some reason the chicks dig you. Your constantly at war with your sister and father with constant bashing of each other but never the less you secr...etly love them. You are an all around nice person, and very loveable, you are surrounded by lots of friends who love to hang out in your basement. People just like you. By the way you might want to hide those naughty magazines before your mother or girlfriend find them!"

p.s : Pretty close enough. Digging chicks I'm not sure of that but for the whole description and for the story itself it reminds me of the thought of being a youth is to get wasted, and grounded by parents until you learn responsibility.

p.p.s : Basement I don't have any. Yeah, that's Yoda. I wonder how the description of this quiz will be if this green jedi master turn out to be the quiz master.

His Best Wishes.

He knows it’s just a matter of time. When it’s fated then it is. When once the word forever was a virtue and a promise, yet too heavy for two youthful hearts to hold and to share the same love destiny in reality. They knew each other well and they had their chance to share their affection but it came too early so he had to go, leaving her first with sadness followed by never-ending happiness, once their forever and it’s barely for her now to take it all. He thinks it’s time for both of them to move on or maybe she has moved on courageously since forever left him thinking could the curse still be broken. Or there’s no curse really. Only in their own world of grievance or resistance, if it ever existed.

Finally, it’s her day. It’s her turn to smile. It’s a rare act but worth the bliss. A blessing and a sign of maturity. Her ceremony will mark their new separated journey, to forget the crossing they once had together, a story of the inexperienced young lovers.

Congratulations.


Zero Somebody 2.

Hari ini Subzero telah ke kelas. Kebanyakan kelasnya telah dibatalkan. Mungkin kerana minggu pertama pensyarah masih lagi sibuk mengatur jadual atau pun menyusun kelas yang sesuai untuk pelajar. Persekitaran kelas yang kondusif sememangnya diperlukan untuk pelajar menyerap segala ilmu yang ditutur dan diajarkan oleh seseorang pensyarah yang berintegriti. For this so-called world class university.

Subzero woke up early in the morning and he thought that it was going to be a great day to kick-start with his so-called breakfast prior to the 8.30am class. He had his breakfast. It was good. So-called good. Why everything has to be so-called?

Obviously, it came out from a lecturer. His name consists of Prof. Ir. Dr. followed by his full name. Setiap 5 minit daripada syarahan beliau perkataan “so-called” itu akan muncul. So-called material. So-called world. So-called biodegradable objects. Mungkin diri beliau telah terbiasa dengan perkataan itu. So-called terbiasa. Subzero respects him in all ways as the lecturer has all of the major achievement and recognition a person can have. However, the best part is Subzero realized that having a Prof Ir. Dr. lecturer means that he has to attend conference more than the lecture itself. Semakin banyak kelas batal jawabnya. Wujud kegembiraan sementara di situ.

It was 2 hours of lecture. Whole 2 hours from the lecturer only which means there was not even a question to ask from the students. Either the lecturer had not given the chance for the students to talk or the students wholly understood the speech. Or even the students did not have any input at all in their head, including Subzero.


“Kalau bertanya takut dikatakan bodoh dengan soalan itu. Ah, biarkan sahaja. Bukankah tidak bertanya itu adalah norma seorang pelajar?,” Subzero bermonolog sendirian, feedback to himself at least.

Ironically, the next class Subzero had the same type of lecturer and he gave a lecture and so-called all the things in his 2 hours of lecture! Mungkin gaya syarahan masa kini. Perbezaannya cuma pensyarah ini jauh lebih muda daripada Prof.Ir.Dr. Dua dunia berbeza zaman tetapi memang ketara persamaannya. Mungkin sedikit diversiti diperlukan di ruang itu. Untuk kebaikan for this so-called world class university.

p.s : How do you define world class university? Pakai selipar ke kelas? Atau pun bertutur “thats mean” dalam diskusi sesama siswa mahupun antara pensyarah itu sendiri? Remeh tetapi itulah hakikatnya.

p.s.s : Holland has gone through to the world cup final! Eh, ke Netherlands? Everybody’s talking about Paul the psychic Octopus backing Spain to lift the world cup. Definitely orange would never be picked as you know Paul, yes, he’s an octopus or you can even call him a squid. Eight-legged squid that favours mussel for dinner. Beyond doubt seeing Paul making prediction is a joy to the bookies out there. Winner, winner, chicken dinner. Hopefully in the end Holland does not turn out to be Ayam Belanda.

Zero Somebody 1

Diari ini ditulis sepenuhnya tanpa motif. Nota rekaan semata-mata hanya untuk mengisi kelapangan masa. Bukan bertujuan untuk bermelankolik apatah lagi memeningkan fikiran pembaca dengan kata-kata penuh abstrak yang memerlukan seribu satu hujah untuk dicerna dan diterjemahkan pembaca yang majoritinya terdiri daripada pembaca urban (yang semestinya didefinisikan urban semata-mata bukan kerana memiliki akaun Facebook, Twitter mahupun Myspace. Friendster? Oh, sudah 10 ribu tahun ketinggalan zaman dan sebenarnya Myspace juga jatuh dalam kategori itu. Juga tidak juga kerana menonton Akademi Fantasi, medium khayalan penonton berfantasi sebagai superstar nasional jalan singkat).

Maaf dengan mukadimah panjang lebar itu. Juga maaf dengan gaya penulisan bebas ini. Tanpa format tetapi lebih kepada menulis mengikut gaya tentu emosi. Sebenarnya, semakin kita merasakan diri penuh perasaan dan emosi semakin lancar daya psikomotor memberi reaksi terhadap ruang tulis maya ini.

Zero Somebody 1.

Subzero merupakan seorang pelajar universiti. Lebih kurang sama seperti anda semua di luar sana mempunyai cita-cita untuk mendapatkan ijazah dan apa jua jenis kelulusan untuk menempatkan diri dalam masyarakat yang juga mempunyai iltizam, visi, misi, ambisi, motto dan perkataan – perkataan yang sewaktu dengannya yang membawa beban maksud dia seharusnya melunaskan tanggungjawab sebagai belia harapan bangsa dan negara. OK, crap. Actually, he’s not more than a student who’s studying for the sake of getting a general degree, something that he always wondered will he ever achieve that feat. However, there’s still a strong little sound within that gives him the force to believe with the purpose of the line that he has chosen would spare a fortune, if only he came out with a brave heart to succeed with the right attitude and aptitude. Ayat-ayat tipikal tetapi mungkin sedikit berguna kelak sekiranya ditenung dan difikirkan dia sejenak sambil melihat siling sebelum tidur. Itu pun sekiranya suara kecil itu resonans dengan semangat dalaman dirinya.

Subzero hanya seorang belia tipikal. Sememangnya lumrah menjadi seorang lelaki kelalaian dan lacking sense of urgency menjadikan dirinya bersifat laidback dan mudah hanyut dalam arus globalisasi dan hedonisme. Jadi tidak hairanlah 3 hari sebelum bermulanya semester baru universiti Subzero masih lagi belum mendapatkan sebuah rumah sewa untuk diduduki. Dia lebih selesa menghabiskan masa berhibur dan berlibur bersama rakan-rakan di tempat kediamannya. Lepak, lepak dan lepak memenuhi gaya hidup remaja lelaki masa kini. For a man, he needs a base before he can conquer. For Subzero, apa jenis base pun belum ada apatah lagi untuk conquer. Conquer as in succeeding whatever kind of skirmish given. Including to find the nearest food stall and football field. Oh, OK. Conquering the football field. Akhirnya, perkataan conquer itu menjadi relevan. (Actually, it’s the kind of phrase that he built to make himself feel more important in his head.)

Luckily he got a rental house. It was his last resort. Secara teknikalnya, rumah tersebut adalah sebuah pangsapuri. OK, that’s a big lie with the intention of getting a greater reputation. Rumah flat berumur berpuluh tahun mungkin to be exact. Subzero searched it on the net and the flat was the last call he made. Luckily, the owner has accepted his request to rent the house. He was so relieved until he took a look at the house a day before he had to register the classes for the new semester at the varsity.

Pada hari pemindahan barang ke rumah sewa tersebut, perkara pertama yang menjadi cabaran dan halangan terbesar adalah rumah itu berada di tingkat 5 tanpa lif, aras tertinggi bagi blok flat tersebut. Namun jangan sesekali menyesal kerana keputusan untuk duduk di rumah sewa itu merupakan keputusan dirinya sendiri. Sesungguhnya untuk menjadikan sesuatu perbuatan itu rasional perbuatan itu hendaklah dialaskan dengan suatu frasa jadi Subzero menjauhkan penyesalan tentang rumah sewa itu dengan mengalaskannya dengan kata alah biasa tegal biasa. Naik sahaja tangga setinggi 5 tingkat itu tanpa banyak karenah. To endure is the willingness to learn. Words of wisdom yang biasanya terdapat pada kalendar.


Setibanya Subzero di pintu rumah sewa barunya itu, dia menyapa rakan serumah barunya itu.

“Assalamualaikum. Nama aku Subzero. Aku lah yang menelefon kau untuk menyewa rumah ini,” sapaan pertama Subzero kepada rakan rumah sewanya seramai dua orang setakat hari itu. Dimaklumkan pada keesokan hari dua lagi penyewa yang merupakan pelajar juga akan mula berpindah ke rumah tersebut.

Mendengar nama Subzero membuatkan mereka sedikit terlopong. Apakah muka Melayu berkulit sawo matang ini bernama Subzero? Tiada nama Ahmad, Muhammad, Khairul atau nama-nama kebiasaan Melayu yang lain pada dirinya? Hatta, mereka tidak tahu bahawa itu adalah part of the plan. To keep himself anonymous in the house. Bukan dia mahu menjadi anti-sosial tetapi lebih kepada merahsiakan sedikit sebanyak identiti dirinya. He has the ideology of little-less known is easier. Mungkin dengan sedikit rujukan mereka boleh tertawa kecil kerana pada zaman kegemilangan permainan video Sega judul Mortal Kombat sinonim dengan karektor Subzero yang mempunyai hikmat membekukan objek dengan kuasa ais. Biarlah pun mewujudkan sedikit suasana skeptikal tetapi Subzero selesa dengan keadaan begitu.

Langkah pertama ke bilik yang telah diberikan. Tiada kipas, sedikit berhabuk dan sawang, tergantung poster The Chronicles of Narnia : Prince Caspian (mungkin peninggalan daripada penyewa rumah lama) dan mempunyai tingkap. Ya, sekurang-kurangnya baik mempunyai tingkap daripada tidak mempunya kipas kerana kipas boleh dibeli tetapi tidak pula pada tingkap. Sedikit kecewa tetapi lebih baik daripada tiada. That was when he thought of the word independent. Berdikari dalam membersihkan segala sawang yang ada dalam bilik tersebut not to mention the money needed to buy things in order to complete the room. Complaining rarely exists in him but looks like Subzero has to do so while adapting to non-complacency for a while.

It was a long day really for him. He had the chance to talk to his housemates. They were practically decent. That was something that made him happy after the hard day. Long story short it was a long long day for Subzero. He knew that the new chapter has just begun. It has already started when Subzero gave Cheezels treat to his new housemates. Politics exercise.

p.s : Adakah perkataan ambition telah dimelayukan? Jika belum sesungguhnya saya berbangga berbuat demikian. Barulah berjiwa perintis. Heh, ambisi melambung.

p.s.s : Penulis juga masih mempunyai akaun Myspace yang masih aktif. Oh, 10 ribu tahun ketinggalan zaman juga rupanya.